Wednesday, December 17, 2008

!!! Merry Christmas !!!

Its Christmas season and no I don’t feel that when I look around. Instead all I can see is long sad faces, some worried about their future security, some worried about the present that is arranging money for the booze!!
Come on now. After all the association of partying and the Youngistan is not a wishy washy affair to say the least!
Jobs are being sacked, people are coming back from the not so festive Amerika, people are working like donkeys to save the jobless job at hand.
Amidst all this I’ve my own set of chaos. Badly bruised room mates, lost my cell phone, no salary for a whole month and this happens to be my favourite month.
Well… Christmas season and also the joy that remains next day as well. ;)

So I was talking about the “electrifying festive aura” I see around that leaves me paralyzed with excitement!
Today is one of those days for me when I sit brooding over all the worst things in my life. It’s like jumping in a puddle of dirty water and continuously wailing and scolding people for spilling mud on you. I am sure most normal, average Joe Bloggs type character will agree with what I say.
10 things you do when you are in a bad mood:
1. You think you are the filthiest, stupidest, dumbest, idiots, the most useless thing to have ever trotted the face of earth.
2. You start blaming yourself for everything and anything that went wrong.
3. If you see somebody talking and God forbid they shoot a glance at you. “Look even they think I am stupid”!!
4. You avoid all good things. Say music and even if you somehow get yourself to listen to a song, it turns out to be even more depressing.
5. You stop talking to everyone and show like they are the ones not talking because refer point 1.
6. You are at your sarcastic best with a person who s trying to console you.
7. You feel you are a waste and don’t have a purpose in your life.
8. All of a sudden you get this urge to stare into oblivion and cry. Cry your heart out.
9. The only place you want to visit is probably the loo (for gals :D)
10. Oh God!!!! WHY ME?????

Now 10 things you are not supposed to do :
All of the above!!!!

I see some heads swinging with disgust, some in agreement and some in disappointment!!
Ah…well. I told you, it’s one of those days for me!

Then I look at the bookmark I’ve on my monitor:

When I need a word of comfort, He is there!
When I struggle neath a burden, He is there!
When the blue skies turn to grey,
And i cannot find my way
At the closing of the day, He is there!
When I cannot face tomorrow, He is there!
When my life is filled with sorrow, He is there!
When I dread the coming dawn,
And it seems I can't go on,
When my hope is almost gone, HE is there!!




Yes this is true, He has been there all the time and loves me even more when I run to him with a paining heart and teary eyes.
Our bond strengthens with every passing day and I love him for I’ve found the Bestest friend in Him.

Thank you my Savior for guiding me and for being my refuge.

Love,
Your Child