Colours fade but vanish never!

When tears roll down and you know it is for him
You regret the moment more than anything
When you let him walk away
Never to come back and never for you to have

You recollect all the wonderful times
When just a smile passed would send shivers
His gentle touch and caring words
Seems to fade and wither

You thought he is yours forever
But love in your heart you showed him never
You left him alone in the name of sanity
And held a hand and called it sympathy

Love was never yours to have
With the pain that you’ve caused
Free your soul from your reveries first
Reckon and understand that you are blessed

To have so many hearts that care
You search but you’d find that’s rare
When all that you want is there for you
Why don’t you love them back and be a bit fair

Now he is gone forever in a land so new
Better than your dejection and the feeling so blue
But now when you should be happy for him
You want him back at the slightest clue

You dream of a life with his hand in yours
But that hand is held so tight by someone else
You cry in vain as you want him back
Wishing all hands held are not supposed to last

A pang of guilt hits your heart and you shudder
Shame on you to think of such blunder
Why can’t you be happy seeing the one you love at peace
Why do you wish so bad and endlessly pray for things to cease?!

The answer comes from the depths of my heart
Now I know the denial and the arrogance was not very smart
I knew in the heart of hearts that I loved him
But I was blinded by something which I care of so much

Am I helping myself when I am doing this
Is the question I frequently ask and miss
If the life would’ve been so easy and had less spice
The colors wouldn’t be there, as black and white would suffice

The gray areas of life unfathomed and unknown
Makes me all blinded when the truth is shown
Then I go haywire in the search of my shadow
Which is so much a part of me but doesn’t make itself known.

At times like this I feel sad and gloomy
Inability to see the obvious is my life’s irony
The wait for the day still continues
When I discover and sing life’s true melody