Why fear thee, brother death
That sharest, breath by breath,
This brimming life of mine?
Each draught that I resign
Into the chalice flows.
Comrades of old are we;
All that the present knows,
Is but a shade of me;
My Self to thee only
and the past is known.
By John Banister Tabb
Friday, January 16, 2009
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
!!! Merry Christmas !!!
Its Christmas season and no I don’t feel that when I look around. Instead all I can see is long sad faces, some worried about their future security, some worried about the present that is arranging money for the booze!!
Come on now. After all the association of partying and the Youngistan is not a wishy washy affair to say the least!
Jobs are being sacked, people are coming back from the not so festive Amerika, people are working like donkeys to save the jobless job at hand.
Amidst all this I’ve my own set of chaos. Badly bruised room mates, lost my cell phone, no salary for a whole month and this happens to be my favourite month.
Well… Christmas season and also the joy that remains next day as well. ;)
So I was talking about the “electrifying festive aura” I see around that leaves me paralyzed with excitement!
Today is one of those days for me when I sit brooding over all the worst things in my life. It’s like jumping in a puddle of dirty water and continuously wailing and scolding people for spilling mud on you. I am sure most normal, average Joe Bloggs type character will agree with what I say.
10 things you do when you are in a bad mood:
1. You think you are the filthiest, stupidest, dumbest, idiots, the most useless thing to have ever trotted the face of earth.
2. You start blaming yourself for everything and anything that went wrong.
3. If you see somebody talking and God forbid they shoot a glance at you. “Look even they think I am stupid”!!
4. You avoid all good things. Say music and even if you somehow get yourself to listen to a song, it turns out to be even more depressing.
5. You stop talking to everyone and show like they are the ones not talking because refer point 1.
6. You are at your sarcastic best with a person who s trying to console you.
7. You feel you are a waste and don’t have a purpose in your life.
8. All of a sudden you get this urge to stare into oblivion and cry. Cry your heart out.
9. The only place you want to visit is probably the loo (for gals :D)
10. Oh God!!!! WHY ME?????
Now 10 things you are not supposed to do :
All of the above!!!!
I see some heads swinging with disgust, some in agreement and some in disappointment!!
Ah…well. I told you, it’s one of those days for me!
Then I look at the bookmark I’ve on my monitor:
When I need a word of comfort, He is there!
When I struggle neath a burden, He is there!
When the blue skies turn to grey,
And i cannot find my way
At the closing of the day, He is there!
When I cannot face tomorrow, He is there!
When my life is filled with sorrow, He is there!
When I dread the coming dawn,
And it seems I can't go on,
When my hope is almost gone, HE is there!!
Yes this is true, He has been there all the time and loves me even more when I run to him with a paining heart and teary eyes.
Our bond strengthens with every passing day and I love him for I’ve found the Bestest friend in Him.
Thank you my Savior for guiding me and for being my refuge.
Love,
Your Child
Come on now. After all the association of partying and the Youngistan is not a wishy washy affair to say the least!
Jobs are being sacked, people are coming back from the not so festive Amerika, people are working like donkeys to save the jobless job at hand.
Amidst all this I’ve my own set of chaos. Badly bruised room mates, lost my cell phone, no salary for a whole month and this happens to be my favourite month.
Well… Christmas season and also the joy that remains next day as well. ;)
So I was talking about the “electrifying festive aura” I see around that leaves me paralyzed with excitement!
Today is one of those days for me when I sit brooding over all the worst things in my life. It’s like jumping in a puddle of dirty water and continuously wailing and scolding people for spilling mud on you. I am sure most normal, average Joe Bloggs type character will agree with what I say.
10 things you do when you are in a bad mood:
1. You think you are the filthiest, stupidest, dumbest, idiots, the most useless thing to have ever trotted the face of earth.
2. You start blaming yourself for everything and anything that went wrong.
3. If you see somebody talking and God forbid they shoot a glance at you. “Look even they think I am stupid”!!
4. You avoid all good things. Say music and even if you somehow get yourself to listen to a song, it turns out to be even more depressing.
5. You stop talking to everyone and show like they are the ones not talking because refer point 1.
6. You are at your sarcastic best with a person who s trying to console you.
7. You feel you are a waste and don’t have a purpose in your life.
8. All of a sudden you get this urge to stare into oblivion and cry. Cry your heart out.
9. The only place you want to visit is probably the loo (for gals :D)
10. Oh God!!!! WHY ME?????
Now 10 things you are not supposed to do :
All of the above!!!!
I see some heads swinging with disgust, some in agreement and some in disappointment!!
Ah…well. I told you, it’s one of those days for me!
Then I look at the bookmark I’ve on my monitor:
When I need a word of comfort, He is there!
When I struggle neath a burden, He is there!
When the blue skies turn to grey,
And i cannot find my way
At the closing of the day, He is there!
When I cannot face tomorrow, He is there!
When my life is filled with sorrow, He is there!
When I dread the coming dawn,
And it seems I can't go on,
When my hope is almost gone, HE is there!!
Yes this is true, He has been there all the time and loves me even more when I run to him with a paining heart and teary eyes.
Our bond strengthens with every passing day and I love him for I’ve found the Bestest friend in Him.
Thank you my Savior for guiding me and for being my refuge.
Love,
Your Child
Monday, November 10, 2008
Colours fade but vanish never!
When tears roll down and you know it is for him
You regret the moment more than anything
When you let him walk away
Never to come back and never for you to have
You recollect all the wonderful times
When just a smile passed would send shivers
His gentle touch and caring words
Seems to fade and wither
You thought he is yours forever
But love in your heart you showed him never
You left him alone in the name of sanity
And held a hand and called it sympathy
Love was never yours to have
With the pain that you’ve caused
Free your soul from your reveries first
Reckon and understand that you are blessed
To have so many hearts that care
You search but you’d find that’s rare
When all that you want is there for you
Why don’t you love them back and be a bit fair
Now he is gone forever in a land so new
Better than your dejection and the feeling so blue
But now when you should be happy for him
You want him back at the slightest clue
You dream of a life with his hand in yours
But that hand is held so tight by someone else
You cry in vain as you want him back
Wishing all hands held are not supposed to last
A pang of guilt hits your heart and you shudder
Shame on you to think of such blunder
Why can’t you be happy seeing the one you love at peace
Why do you wish so bad and endlessly pray for things to cease?!
The answer comes from the depths of my heart
Now I know the denial and the arrogance was not very smart
I knew in the heart of hearts that I loved him
But I was blinded by something which I care of so much
Am I helping myself when I am doing this
Is the question I frequently ask and miss
If the life would’ve been so easy and had less spice
The colors wouldn’t be there, as black and white would suffice
The gray areas of life unfathomed and unknown
Makes me all blinded when the truth is shown
Then I go haywire in the search of my shadow
Which is so much a part of me but doesn’t make itself known.
At times like this I feel sad and gloomy
Inability to see the obvious is my life’s irony
The wait for the day still continues
When I discover and sing life’s true melody
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Hey, it rhymes! :D
Today I sit here in this room,
Thinking which of my talents to groom
Perplexed I stare at the screen
With a thought so complex yet so serene
Where am I standing in this mad race?
Lost and confused losing my pace!
Had a dream cherished very long in heart
Still dazed I wonder from where to start!
Challenges called me but did I face?
Pieces of life started falling at its own place
I know I know I have to fight back
But Perspective and courage both I lack!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Sports... freak me out!
Was one helluva of a sporty day yesterday. After sweating it out at my workplace ;), i just wanted to go home and sleep to give some rest to my groggy throat and seductive red eyes.
But destiny has its own plans as they say, i found myself staring at 2 people playing ping pong (TT). Left - right, left - right. That was soooo rejuvenating to say the least!!
After sometime i experienced some unknown forces compelling me to do something, some voices wispering in my ears, my heart started beating faster... I stood up, pushed the person aside, took the weapon from him and shot the bullet straight at my rivals head. There was blood all over, screams and chaos. But people caught me and then i had to continue playing the toughest game ever Ping Pong!! I just don't understand the rules of the game. The area is so confined. But i was shooting the ball in all direction possible and with all the styles possible. Alas Debo got fed up and took up the humongous task of training me! :D
He taught me stand in a particular crooked, scanty posture. I am sure I must be looking like a retard at that moment with my red eyes bulging out in anticipation (lacking) for the ball and more for my beloved sleep and my right hand stuck weirdly to my right sidee.
Anyways destiny had it and i was trying hard not to smack the ball at anybody's face and desperately place it at least once on the table. pri had enough of my game, she deftly rolled her eyes in exasperation and summoned Debo to satisfy her gaming urge. I was relieved but also a bit ashamed of myself. :P
I've had it enough. I wanted to free my cramped hand now so then i tried my hands at Pool. Now Vivek the Champ in billiards came forward and told me how to use the stick to aim the balls!!
Got the hang of this game pretty fast. Basically i liked the whole idea of it. ;)
Then there was no stopping and the balls were just waiting for a direction from me and zoom zoom zapp.... applaud!! I won of course in partnership with Vivek. How many pots?! come on dude.. be a sport! I don't count and all. Vivek would have felt bad na. O:)
so stay tuned for some more sporting action from me... very hungry now. Should have my lunch on time na so running(yeah i am great at that as well ;))
ciao!
But destiny has its own plans as they say, i found myself staring at 2 people playing ping pong (TT). Left - right, left - right. That was soooo rejuvenating to say the least!!
After sometime i experienced some unknown forces compelling me to do something, some voices wispering in my ears, my heart started beating faster... I stood up, pushed the person aside, took the weapon from him and shot the bullet straight at my rivals head. There was blood all over, screams and chaos. But people caught me and then i had to continue playing the toughest game ever Ping Pong!! I just don't understand the rules of the game. The area is so confined. But i was shooting the ball in all direction possible and with all the styles possible. Alas Debo got fed up and took up the humongous task of training me! :D
He taught me stand in a particular crooked, scanty posture. I am sure I must be looking like a retard at that moment with my red eyes bulging out in anticipation (lacking) for the ball and more for my beloved sleep and my right hand stuck weirdly to my right sidee.
Anyways destiny had it and i was trying hard not to smack the ball at anybody's face and desperately place it at least once on the table. pri had enough of my game, she deftly rolled her eyes in exasperation and summoned Debo to satisfy her gaming urge. I was relieved but also a bit ashamed of myself. :P
I've had it enough. I wanted to free my cramped hand now so then i tried my hands at Pool. Now Vivek the Champ in billiards came forward and told me how to use the stick to aim the balls!!
Got the hang of this game pretty fast. Basically i liked the whole idea of it. ;)
Then there was no stopping and the balls were just waiting for a direction from me and zoom zoom zapp.... applaud!! I won of course in partnership with Vivek. How many pots?! come on dude.. be a sport! I don't count and all. Vivek would have felt bad na. O:)
so stay tuned for some more sporting action from me... very hungry now. Should have my lunch on time na so running(yeah i am great at that as well ;))
ciao!
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